5 Things I Recently Realized About Myself

1. That even if I don’t want to, I am getting older.

I have been in denial that I am getting older from the moment I entered my 20’s. I did not make the year of my birthday on FB visible. I have refrained from answering questions such as, how old are you, what year were you born and when is your birthday? I did not even really try to remember how old I am that when I fill out forms that require me to put my age I need to compute it first. But this year, I accepted it a bit. When it was my birthday, I told people it was my birthday. But when they started asking me how old I am, I walked out. But I do know that no matter how hard I try to deny that I am getting old, I am. And I have been doing mature things now that I know my younger self would never have done. And I think that’s knowing and also accepting, that yes, I am getting older.

2. That I will never grow out of loving cartoons.

Do you know what movie I am mostly anticipating this year? No, it’s not Fast 7, no it’s not The Avengers Age of Ultron and no it’s not some unheard of indie movie. It’s actually Spongebob Squarepants, Fish Out of Water. I grew up with Spongebob and gosh darn it I am gonna die with him. The most recent cartoons I have grown fond of are Adventure Time, The Regular Show, The Amazing World of Gumball and Bob’s Burgers. I also sometimes search the net for some Roco’s Modern Life and Hey Arnold. And you know what, I don’t think I’ll ever grow out of my fondness with cartoons, and I am totally fine with it.

3. That I am progressively becoming a clean freak.

Once a month, that was my schedule for cleaning my room. But lately, I have been cleaning my room like every weekend (this is groundbreaking I tell yah). And then I actually notice myself getting irritated with clothes lying on the floor (seriously, this is very unlike me). And I frigging actually pick them up. That’s how far i’ve gone. Even dust on my laptop bothers the heck out of me now. Then I will notice my windows, also with dust which would then trigger my inner clean freak and I start cleaning everything. I seriously do not even know I have this other side of me. My motto before was, why bother with cleaning, when it will get dirty anyway? So yeah, maybe it’s a getting older thing or something, but I am becoming something I had no idea I would be after a few years.

4. That hangovers are the worst and is not worth it for me anymore!

I remember when I was younger. I would drink like there is no tomorrow. Then the next day for me would be like an episode of The Walking Dead, me being the walking dead. But later that day I would still have the energy to go for another night of drinking my brains off. I was not at all afraid of having a hangover. But now, just the mere thought of it makes me cringe away from drinking any alcoholic beverage. My hangovers are actually much worse now. Before, my hangovers would only last a day and I would sleep on it, then the next day, I was as good as new. But now, it is so much worse cause it takes 2 days of hell before I finally feel like myself again after a night of binge drinking. So two days of feeling like death is officially a no thank you for me. Not even my birthday is worth the hangover. I am done with hangovers!

5. That being concerned about my health is not a bad idea.

I have been getting a lot of news involving high school classmates getting diagnosed with a life threatening illness, mainly cancer. Not only classmates, there are also friends and friends relatives who I know that got diagnosed with a life threatening illness. But it was mostly people around my age getting diagnosed with life threatening illness' that has got me really thinking. Am I healthy? How many years do I have till’ I suddenly find out that I am about to croak? Suddenly, I am very concerned with what I am eating. I laid off carbonated drinks, made sure I drink lots of water, I exercised and got myself an insurance. I wanted to lower my risk of getting cancer and be prepared for any eventual health problems. I know its a long shot when it comes to cancer, but I can’t also just let myself be unhealthy and expect that I would be perfectly fine. I want to be healthy so that I can experience life for as long as I can. And there is nothing wrong with wanting that.